over the mother’s day weekend

mother’s day is pretty much my favorite day of the year. i like it even better than my birthday, and i REALLY love my birthday. there’s just so many feels and emotions attached to this day. plus i get breakfast in bed complete with mimosas, am showered with gifts and kisses, and i don’t have to lift a finger to do anything whatsoever. basically, i am queen for the day. seriously, best day of the year.

the weather was absolutely abysmal the entire day. so we all three (well four if you count the few minutes the cat decided to join us) piled on the bed, listened to music and watched the rain fall outside. matt made me a frittata packed with fresh farmers market goodies and a toasted gluten free apple cinnamon muffin. i got chocolate and prints from local artists as well as the unrated 50 Shades of Grey movie from amazon prime. did i mention this is my favorite day ever?

the afternoon proved to be gloomy still, so we lazed about the house spinning records and playing monopoly and video games. i sipped on gin n tonics and got a foot massage. and for dinner, matt grilled out a new york strip and whipped up some tasty sweet potatoes with sautéed greens and peppers.

as soon as kiddo went to bed, we turned on 50 Shades and well yada yada yada.

so, yes indeed. best day of the year.

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over the weekend

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this past weekend was our second annual parish retreat at camp mitchell, a gorgeous place in the middle of petit jean state park. we always have so much fun on these church trips. i love the people and the fellowship and the surroundings and the peacefulness at the camp. plus, we have a whole lot of fun. we are episcopalians, you know.

while the camp is owned by the diocese of arkansas, it does support the surrounding community. they have a CSA farm that is going on about 2 years where they grow tons of organic fruits and veggies as well as raise free-range chickens.

on saturday, we all walked to the lookout where it is believed that petit jean, a french girl who disguised herself as a boy to follow her love on a ship to the new world, died and was buried. legend has it that her spirit gives the place a mystical quality. i just think it’s really pretty.

we ended the weekend with eucharist in the open air chapel and we sang hymns to the sounds of the wind and birds. i’m always so refreshed and thankful for these quiet weekends. i can’t wait for next year.

over the weekend

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this past weekend was busy and fun and sunny and warm and full of great things.

i spent a cozy friday night in my room with my book and gin while matt had some dudes over for tacos and tequila. it was so entertaining listening to the guys talk while playing games and sampling hot sauce. the din of male voices having a great time is a really sweet sound.

this weekend was also the 41st annual dogwood festival. it’s a small town ‘arts and crafts’ show with booths and food trucks littering our downtown parks. tons of people roll into siloam springs for this shindig every year. it’s crazy and kinda lame but sorta fun. this time it felt more exciting, maybe because for once the weather was super nice. i volunteered with a friend to be the handicap parking czar, making sure the festival’s disabled patrons had proper access to all the fun. well, at least in my two hour time slot on saturday afternoon. but as a family we walked around and bought tie-dye t-shirts and chocolate and a samurai sword.

saturday night i went to a birthday house party. i expected to only go for an hour or so but stayed late into the night dancing and laughing. that was good for my soul. i have some really beautiful friends, by the way.

sunday was a lovely church service then a visit from my dad. and we made burgers for dinner and realized that grilled pineapple is my new favorite thing.

this weekend was wonderful.

don’t be a weak thinker

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i just finished reading ‘american rust.’ it was given to me by a friend and while it’s not necessarily something i would have picked up on my own, i really ended up enjoying this read. the subject matter was a bit heavy, but i loved the writing style, stream of consciousness, as it’s kinda how i typically write. it pulls me in to the characters, allows me to feel what they feel. plus, this book had some really great lines, like ‘don’t be a weak thinker.’

i love that thought. it’s not that we’re weak willed or weak hearted or even weak physically. we just don’t think we can do something so we won’t even try. i want that line to be a kind of mantra for my life. any action or idea starts in the mind and if you can’t imagine big things, you’ll never accomplish them. not necessarily MLK or JFK or Beyonce kinda things, but SOMETHING. go beyond the comfort zone, outside the box, uncharted territory. a challenge. a stretch.

don’t be complacent, average or ‘normal.’ always strive to be more, whatever ‘more’ looks like.

imagine. create. BE. greater than you’ve ever known or understood to be possible. go above and beyond the realm of possibility. surprise yourself. there’s always more, bigger, better, greater out there if we’ll only just believe it to be so. then work hard to make it a reality.

but it all starts with ‘don’t be a weak thinker.’

the main event

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last friday was the annual main event, a fundraising dinner for our main street organization. it’s like the most fun thing. we get all dressed up, eat yummy food, drink tasty cocktails and spend lots of money to benefit our downtown. matt and i always bid on the same item: one night stay, dinner and limo ride to the cherokee casino. yes. three years running. this time around, it was a live auction item, and boy howdy did matt have ever so much fun outbidding everyone else. of course that means we also spent about $100 more on it than previous years but what the hey, it’s for a good cause. and that limo ride is worth it, man. of course, the ride is only about 10 minutes long because the casino is really close by, but WHO CARES I’M IN A BLEEPING LIMOUSINE!! plus the steak house there is off the churt. so good.

but the whole event is awesome and it always raises a ton of money. i think it accounts for about a quarter to one half the total yearly budget for the organization. and our main street is kinda the cutest.

the photo booth was a nice new touch this year. you can tell this was at the end of the night and we were feeling loose and happy. and i rocked the shit outta this pantsuit. dancing like a crazy person out on the floor. yep, it was a fun night.

lucky

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my mom and i used to look for four leaf clovers together. she was a master at it, could find them by just walking through the grass, always with her hands clasped behind her back. sometimes she’d ruffle the tufts with her foot is she suspected maybe that extra leaf was from a clover neighbor and not a lucky one at all.

every spring i’m compelled to find one. the parks are full of lush clover mounds. the past couple days i’ve been searching hard for one; like out on a mission, crouching, serious searching, digging into the depths.

today i was on my walk and had planned to end in the park to desperately look for that elusive four leafed wonder. i had a bit of a heavy heart over some family hurt and was praying about it, thinking how my mom would know exactly what to do and how to handle it. i felt sad and to the point of crying out there in the open sky, then i saw it. my four leaf clover!

it was an answer to prayer. not so much finding the clover, but what my heart was breaking over.  this was an ease of mind, a peace that surpasses all understanding. my soul asked, ‘is it going to be okay then?’ at that moment i saw the other one. that was the validation: the ‘yes.’

just when i was breaking, i got the comfort i needed. i didn’t have to search for it or work for it. it was a sweet gift and the most perfect timing because it wasn’t mine, it was His.

now i have two lucky clovers: one for me, one for her.

over the easter weekend

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this was such a lovely weekend. saturday was gloriously warm and sunny. i attempted to run for the first time since the hike, but my foot pain forced me to ease up and walk. it was annoying at first, but it did allow me to appreciate the budding trees and blossoming flowers around town. i love watching the world slowly awaken after a long winter. i had a tasty lunch, then i was able to lay out on the deck, soak up some rays, relish the quiet afternoon.

in the episcopal church, we celebrate the great vigil on the saturday night before easter sunday. it is my most favorite service of the year. we begin in darkness with lit candles outside, then file inside reverently to fill up the pews. the liturgy follows the full scope of Christ’s life and ministry, including even the prophetic passages in the old testament, and chronicles his death and celebrates his resurrection. after about two hours, we proclaim ‘he is risen indeed!’ and toast to new life. and eat yummy food and drink champagne. i love my church.

sunday, was slow and relaxed. because we are at church til about 11pm on saturday, we don’t really go to easter sunday service. but i did roast a most delicious leg of lamb, marinated in rosemary and garlic, with potatoes and lemons. sautéed some kale for the side. isaiah got a hollow chocolate bunny.

now it’s monday and cloudy and dreary and all i want is the sun to come out. but i’m thankful for the weekend i enjoyed.

buffalo river trail

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last friday morning, matt and i embarked on the hiking adventure of a lifetime. well, that might be a bit of an exaggeration, but it was a big deal to us. a couple months ago, we decided to hike the 37 mile buffalo river trail from boxley to pruitt. it was four days and three nights of grueling outdoorsiness. we were super excited for the challenge and change of scenery. what we didn’t know was how bleeping hard this trail is.

our backpacks were crazy heavy. mine weighed about 30 pounds and matt’s was probably closer to 50. we carried those things up and down some serious terrain. parts of the trail were so steep, it almost felt like we were going straight up. but climbing up was so much easier than going down. the trail would sometimes skirt the side of the bluffs and if you had one false step, you were going to plummet to your death. but the vistas at the top made the climb worth it, and the beautiful streams and rivers at the bottom made the trek down worth it.

the scenery was ever changing as was the weather. the nights were bitter cold. we’d make camp at the top of the bluffs and the wind would whip through and we’d sleep curled up in little balls inside our mummy bags. i also use the word ‘sleep’ lightly. i typically hovered between slumber and wakefulness all night as i tossed and turned trying to find a spot between the rocks and roots that poked out of the ground. it rained on us, it sleeted on us, and a couple afternoons were hot and sunny.

along the way we saw few hikers, and no one doing the entire trail. one guy was hiking in a ralph lauren plaid button down. i thought that was funny. and we found some abandoned articles of clothing, like a knit hat, pair of jeans, and a bath towel. but we saw deer, elk, and had animals sniffing our tent at night. we both got tick bites and were attacked by a family of red wasps.

my phone died at about 4:30 on friday so i only got a few shots of the trail. but matt brought the camera and we took loads of video and will be producing a wee documentary of our trip. i’m really excited about this part. i’ve been journaling our experience and that has been a great thing for me.

we’ve never done anything like this before. it was the hardest thing i’ve ever done and i’ve given birth and ran five marathons. but i learned so much about myself. i’m stronger than i thought i was, both mentally and physically. i learned that God is faithful and creative and loving and gracious in a much more real and tangible way than i ever knew before. learned that there is no one i’d rather do a hike like that with than matt, and there is no one i’d rather do life with than matt. it was a totally different bonding experience for us. we leaned on each other, looked to the other for help and encouragement. matt is such a fantastic leader and protector. i fell in love with him in a deeper way this weekend. a way that had very little to do with romance, but one that is far more intimate.

this wasn’t a ‘fun’ trip. but it was still a life-changing event. it was enjoyable and satisfying and beautiful and terrifying and soul searching. i really loved it.

spring break adventures

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SPRING BREAK 2015!!!!

it’s really not all that exciting. it started off with matt going out of town and the city shutting off the gas to our house while they moved the lines underground. that was super fun. cold showers anyone? however that all got taken care of and isaiah and i went on grand adventures around town. he was finn the human and i was lumpy space princess, because OF COURSE. we had lunch with friends and i laid out on the deck. then matt finally got home (yay) just in time for isaiah to get sick and vomit all over his room. loads of laundry later, we watch Adventure Time basically non-stop (because going on our own adventure with a sever tummy ache is not gonna happen). then the tornado warnings fly and the hail rains down and the twister narrowly misses us by 10 miles. all of that and it’s only thursday. maybe spring break 2015 is kinda exciting!